hey..u r lucky man..at least u've been holdin' something for the past years and get an option to forget or keep it..that's all better than when someone's asking u--so, do u have someone still in ur mind, or how about any good memories of love or relationships---and then, suddenly u just realized that the past more than twenty years is just like a black whole sucking up every piece of ur life...,empty. Well, i told him i can't recall exactly all the stuff are so blur and i really have no idea what i should say ..at that time i was questioning myself a lot and finally i said "yeah....i kind of had some relationship w/ someone before.." to try to make myself feel better, but definitely that was freaking stupid for god sake..
scar is a sweet reminder with pain, so what, u own it, 5 yrs, 10 yrs, 20 yrs, or forever....screw all the innocent fantasies..i complained a lot about my life before but nothing got better. i don't know for what reason i changed but change is good....and i have something can be memorized now..
Feel all better, B...u r far smarter than me, so u can dial it back very soon~someone i liked a lot, stop whining and get urself together..Going out and cheers~ :)
